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I hate this feeling. I really hate it. I hate it when i lose. I hate it when i lose in weiqi.

Today in dan research class i lose to him.I really cannot take it. This is the exact same feeling i got when i lost to alvin in the thailand selection. I just could not smile the whole night and my mind keep flashing images of the game, where did i play wrong?

I hate it when he say sacarstic stuff when i make tat mistake. wats wrong with me? is such a simple trick and i din see it. yes, a TRICK not a good move. A move that hope i din see it so that he can succeed.

I want to scream.

I must learn to lose, but it will be hard.